A challenge

I've been offered an unexpected challenge. What is it people actually want to read in the book? A book that no one reads is not, for me, a book. Defintion 3 in the Mirriam Webster Dictionary is the book I want to write. A book is a published thing that people are invited to read, it hits the mark when it is read. If that isn't true then I have already written many books. They sit idle in my computer or hand written long ago. When I came back from Bosnia I quickly realised that people wanted a sad, bad and funny story. Nothing else. I dutifully delivered all three "stories" and could quietly walk away from conversation when I had delivered. The book is different. People who choose to read it want and need more than that. Nobody cares a damn about the historical facts. If you wanted historical facts you wouldn't read my book - although they are important to the book. People may be interested in the mechanical details, how I got there, what it took, all the glue that holds the story together. Arrrrrrrrrrrgh the other reader, the one I covert, really care to know how I felt and what it tasted like. A good yarn is a good yarn. A good autobiograhpy touches a nerve, it resonates, it leaves the reader with a feeling and a taste - that is what I want to write, that is what I am trying to write. The limit is clear (at least to me). While I do "feel things", when talking to others I intellectualise those feelings. I don't do it consciously but I can always see it retrospectively. My challenge is to have the reader be engaged with how I felt, not read it and feel nothing but vague intellectual engagement (okay some of the readers can - but not all). I am climbing my own Mt Everest.